~I love you,Goodbye!!~

Lately,i've been listening to Celine Dion's "I love you,Goodbye". I am really into this song because i really love the lyrics of it. Now its the only song I play over again and again for days now. Everytime when i am listening to the song it just make me think so much about my lover. Coz whenever we got problem,then he will start telling me exactly like what the lyrics are in the song.

I Love you,Goodbye

by

Celine Dion

Wish I could be the one

The one who could give you love

The kind of love you really need

Wish i could say to you

That I'll always stay with you

But baby that's not me

You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you

Promise you forever, baby that's something i can't do

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie

I know i'd only hurt you

I know i'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can

Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you

I don't really wanna go

But deep inside my heard I know this is the kindest thing to do

You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be

Who'll give you something better

Than the love you'll find with me

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a crime

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone

Is the hardest thing to do

When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh, I don't wanna leave you

Baby it tears me up inside

But I'll never be the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

Baby, it's never gonna work out

I love you, goodbye

Hope you guys will enjoy the song. Its time to bed already...OMG!! Its d 4am!!!

*run*

~DISAPPOINTED~

I was so happy because i thought i can see you very soon. I've waited for u for the whole day and when it gets later i feel more excited!! But suddenly the phone rang...*ring ring*..*ring ring*

Me: Hello!!
You: Wei,baby arr...
Me: Yes..
You: Tonight i am not going back already ya...
Me: *disappointed tone* Oh..why??
You: Because Fwed is very tired.
Me: Then you and Zen cannot drive meh??
You: No arr..coz Zen wanted to stay one more night also.
Me: *quiet*

Sigh..i am really disappointed!! Your call spoiled my mood. I am really sick of those feelings. Everytime when i am waiting for you happily then you will end up having something to do and i gotta start waiting again and again. I got something happy to tell you this afternoon but i wanna keep it first coz i wanna tell you at night when i see you online. Now i guess you will not wanted to know. Even if you wanted to but i don't think i will. I guess i really need to get used to not having you with me. I realised i depends on ur companionship too much. I REALLY DO!! I gotta get rid of it!

Well,i guess it might be happier to spend more time with friends. I can't do anything though and also from the previous blog i said that i do not want to quarrel with you anymore. And i mean it!! Although i know i am really upset with those disappointments but i guess there is nothing i can do. Is either i tolerate or to give up!! Well,i will not give up right now...will see how long i can tolerate!? If one day i really give up means i can't take it anymore.

Phew~Hope you will have a nice weekends!! Enjoy ur nights with your friends.

I Miss You...

Snif snif snif.....

Today is freaking cold here...keep raining continuously!!! And you guys guess what?? After the discussion for the assignment in the uni i decided to take a tram back so i walked across the road without an umbrella while its raining quite heavily and here comes a worker to tell us that the tram isn't working for the next few hours due to the rain. What the hell?? And of course i got no choice but to walk back to the uni again to catch up a bus. By then my coat and my hair have edi gone wet..Yucks!! I hate it when its raining and summore the weather is freaking cold!!! I miss u so much,darling.... i so wish you are here to hug hug me. Everytime when you hug me i just feel so warm and secure. I really can't wait till July when you come because i will be back to your arm again. Today i feel really content because you will be going home soon and i can talk to you online through skype edi. I haven't see you for ages and for the past few days we haven't got a good conversation. But at least last night we do have a nice wishing before we sleep...*no more quarreling*. Darling, i don want us to quarrel anymore...coz i don feel good after it. I am now looking at the photos we took when you were here. It is so NICE!!! When you come in July then we will be talking loads of photos ya?!! I just feel so excited on our mini mini honeymoon trip and also to the new apartment which i m going to move in. I guess i will get really excited when the date is nearer. Well,will be moving out soon in about a mth time and then will be having my examinations AND here comes my mini mini honeymoon trip. Yeahhhh!!!!

Darling,for the past few days when you are not around i guess Galgal miss you lots. She will be like....

Galgal: Erm...where is daddy leh??? How come din see him for few days edi one?? Where is he?? Long time din lick his "ketiak" edi ler..miss him tim!!..SluRppPPPPpppp~*licking the cow cow*

Hahaha...Do u miss her?? I guess u did!! Coz i miss her muchie muchie much 2. Our lovely daughter with so many cheeky movements!! How can we forget about her?! Right??


Galgal: See what see?? 'Mei kin goh leng lui arr??' Muahahahaa....


Galgal: I also want to eat!!! Weiii...can anyone give me some food?? See..i oso purposely sit like you guys edi...

This is our beloved Galgal Seou. Darling and i really love her very much coz she will always do some cheeky,naughty but yet cute movements to make us laugh at her. Sometimes when the daddy did something that she don likes it then she will start barking at the daddy. Haha...darling,pity u!! Coz Galgal and me will be enough to give u a big headache. Our 'fierceness'...wakakakaka...but good for you also what coz we two always manja with you. That time you sure HIGH until dunno like what!! Hahaha...

Gonna stop here first, will continue to blog later.

Dinner time!!

*run*

WHY??

Tonite is really a tough night for me!! My heart is really in pain till i do not know what to say!! WHY?? Why did you have to say that to me? Do u mean it? Everytime you will ask me to give you a chance but when there is a problem happen between us then you wil throw it back to me again!! WHY? Everytime when i tell you what and why i am upset with then you will always think that its your fault. And after all you will start telling me that you are so sorry about it and you think you make me suffer!! So its better to let me go!! Is this how you treat the one you love? If u keep doing this then why do you need to ask me to give u a chance in the first place? I bet you never think how i feel?! Everytime when i decided to give u a chance is because i still believe in you that you really wanted a chance to prove to me that you will treat me better!! But everytime you will just throw the chance back to me again and again when we have problems!!! Sometimes, i will just give myself a second to think whether how much do you LOVE me? I thought i should have know the answer but now i am getting confused!! I always wanted to have a family with you but now i always ask myself -*do you think you can?*-I dunno!! Could you please tell me?! Am i loving the right person?

I know distance relationship is really HARD to maintain but i am wearing ur ring and please trust me!! I know you are very busy with ur work and i understand that you can't really accompany me but what i want is just to have some time to talk to each other. I know you are trying ur very best to accompany me..i really appreciate of what you did!! Pls do not say that again that i do not appreciate and what i know is just to blame!! Ok?

Actually,its not important anymore because i decided to LET IT GO!! I just don wanna get hurt from you again. I'm just too afraid!! Coz whenever there is a problem between us then you will surely ask me to go. Today is the first time i get to drink so much because i just can't stop thinking of us being together. By getting drunk will be the best way for me to stop thinking of u....

~*FINALLY....*~

This blog has been created for about a month but yet nothing is in it and FINALLY i am here to start writing my first entry. Well,i do not know where should i start off..because there is no special things happen today. Life is just so miserable!! We are always busy with something,like assignments,weekly test,examinations and so on...today my examination timetable has already out and guess what i am UNHAPPY with it. My exams will only finish on the second last day. What the hell?? But its alright bcoz my hubby will be here with me during my last paper. At least i am not alone!! I really can't wait to finish all my exams so that i can go for a holiday with my hubby. Melbourne,Sydney..HERE WE COME!! *to my hubby*-Darling,i really can't wait to go for our mini mini honeymoon.Hehe...we are going to SHOP crazily n EAT terribly!!OK?? I MISS U SO MUCH!!-