WHY??

Tonite is really a tough night for me!! My heart is really in pain till i do not know what to say!! WHY?? Why did you have to say that to me? Do u mean it? Everytime you will ask me to give you a chance but when there is a problem happen between us then you wil throw it back to me again!! WHY? Everytime when i tell you what and why i am upset with then you will always think that its your fault. And after all you will start telling me that you are so sorry about it and you think you make me suffer!! So its better to let me go!! Is this how you treat the one you love? If u keep doing this then why do you need to ask me to give u a chance in the first place? I bet you never think how i feel?! Everytime when i decided to give u a chance is because i still believe in you that you really wanted a chance to prove to me that you will treat me better!! But everytime you will just throw the chance back to me again and again when we have problems!!! Sometimes, i will just give myself a second to think whether how much do you LOVE me? I thought i should have know the answer but now i am getting confused!! I always wanted to have a family with you but now i always ask myself -*do you think you can?*-I dunno!! Could you please tell me?! Am i loving the right person?

I know distance relationship is really HARD to maintain but i am wearing ur ring and please trust me!! I know you are very busy with ur work and i understand that you can't really accompany me but what i want is just to have some time to talk to each other. I know you are trying ur very best to accompany me..i really appreciate of what you did!! Pls do not say that again that i do not appreciate and what i know is just to blame!! Ok?

Actually,its not important anymore because i decided to LET IT GO!! I just don wanna get hurt from you again. I'm just too afraid!! Coz whenever there is a problem between us then you will surely ask me to go. Today is the first time i get to drink so much because i just can't stop thinking of us being together. By getting drunk will be the best way for me to stop thinking of u....